Insulation

Finished NaNo but as usual, my new passion is a new piece I am working on. I know it is a reflection of me not being able to follow through. But at least the passion for it will fill me a bit. This is my first Christmas without my mother and there is a draft inside me. My creativity is a bit of insulation for me. It is the thing that warms me when I feel cold inside. Not every bit of creative thought comes from a cold place in me, but when it does it warms me, revitalizes me that I can reconstruct everything that happens to me.

This story is a new theme for me. A spin off from the themes in my NaNo novel, very dark and at the bottom of Pandora's Box. Opened it and like a yoga pose, my head down to the bottom to get up every last bit of what I should not have even known. For this story, I have to be fearless. It is getting easier and easier for me to be so...

Finished!

I completed NaNo at the witching hour. I have never been opposed to being a witch!

So this novel took me to some dark places and let me feel the hum of recurring themes of mine that were lurking in some of my places all along.

I have discovered the mind might try to hide, but the body will not or vice versa. The things that fascinate us are part of us. Just beneath the skin, or right on the surface.

I finished the novel, but I opened Pandora's box and I am not afraid...

Whew

At the mid point of NaNo, at 25000 words I can say whew, and what a sigh of relief, almost like a bath in rose petals while it is still warm. I won last year, and am on the fast track this year. I have been reading and writing nonstop erotica so I am infused with it like a good flavored vodka. It was reading a lot of Black Lace novels two by Kristina Lloyd who I raved about in several previous posts that inspired me to go out of my comfort zone with erotic writing. I was talking to a male friend of mine who is pretty unshockable, and when I told him one of the ideas I was toying with he told me it was DAMN NASTY. I was kind of startled by that, but shocking him encouraged me to shock myself more. When you have to finish a 50000 word novel you do not have time to censor. I will let you know who I am December 1...

NaNo, NaNo

I was working on NaNo--and I am proud to say that my word count is such that I should be posting a NaNo winner poster on my blog shortly.

I'll be blogging then, and visiting the Fishtank more often too...

...maybe even expounding more on that story I was working on when I started this blog.